Dreaming of tigers
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robinturnerA fairly stressful day found me starting to doze off in front of the TV at 10 p.m., which prompted Nalan to tell me to go to bed. I protested that whenever I go to bed before midnight, I wake up in the small hours, but went to bed anyway. Naturally I woke up at 2 a.m. (self-fulfilling prophecies and all that). I was having a nightmare about the end of the world being triggered by an essay competition, which seemed really terrifying until a minute had elapsed, and pretty funny after that, even though the underlying sense of dread remained. This lends support to the idea (from Coleridge?) that we do not feel scared because we dream of a tiger; we dream of a tiger because we feel scared.
I also had a rather amusing dream involving looking at my mother's old photo album, which revealed that during the sixties she had organised love-ins in our garden and was friends with Timothy Leary.
I am still not sure how much the odd state of my brain is due to its attempts to rebalance neurotransmitters after giving up smoking. It's not a very strong hypothesis, since two months seems rather a long time to be still having withdrawal symptoms, especially since I had few if any of the normal physical withdrawal symptoms (constipation, shaking hands, cold sweats etc.). However, th alternative hypothesis - that I am by nature irritable and depressed but had masked it by using nicotine to up my dopamine levels - is even less encouraging. Fortunately, this is equally unlikely, since if this were the case, I should have been like that during the 1980s, which actually made up the happiest period of my life. Time to fish around for a new hypothesis.
William Godwin, in his mammoth tome An Enquiry Concerning Political Justice, considered various theories about the causes of a person's nature. Showing fairly advanced thinking for 1793, he considered heredity, pre-natal events and early childhood experiences, and concluded that whatever influences these factors might have, they paled into insignificance beside the influence of a person's current circumstances. To return to our tiger analogy, in waking life rather than dreams, if a person who sees a tiger is scared, it is not because he has a timorous nature or had a bad experience with a tiger as a child; it is because he is looking at a tiger.
I also had a rather amusing dream involving looking at my mother's old photo album, which revealed that during the sixties she had organised love-ins in our garden and was friends with Timothy Leary.
I am still not sure how much the odd state of my brain is due to its attempts to rebalance neurotransmitters after giving up smoking. It's not a very strong hypothesis, since two months seems rather a long time to be still having withdrawal symptoms, especially since I had few if any of the normal physical withdrawal symptoms (constipation, shaking hands, cold sweats etc.). However, th alternative hypothesis - that I am by nature irritable and depressed but had masked it by using nicotine to up my dopamine levels - is even less encouraging. Fortunately, this is equally unlikely, since if this were the case, I should have been like that during the 1980s, which actually made up the happiest period of my life. Time to fish around for a new hypothesis.
William Godwin, in his mammoth tome An Enquiry Concerning Political Justice, considered various theories about the causes of a person's nature. Showing fairly advanced thinking for 1793, he considered heredity, pre-natal events and early childhood experiences, and concluded that whatever influences these factors might have, they paled into insignificance beside the influence of a person's current circumstances. To return to our tiger analogy, in waking life rather than dreams, if a person who sees a tiger is scared, it is not because he has a timorous nature or had a bad experience with a tiger as a child; it is because he is looking at a tiger.
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Date: 2004-09-19 09:25 pm (UTC)I like it. Inference to the best explanation and all that.
OTOH, I hate the falling asleep only to wake up at stupid o'clock syndrome. I woke up last night when the tv got turned off and couldn't get back to sleep.
How long were you a smoker for? I might have said this before, but the physical reaction to giving up can be slight compared to the habit breaking. For months after giving up I'd have a feeling I ought to be lighting a cigarette when walking out the front door, not because I wanted one but because I'd been doing it for so long. As for irritation, I guess it's, as Godwin says, a whole raft of factors. But the current factor may be that you previously had a way of dealing with irritation that is unavailable.
I was at Chester Zoo in the 70s...
Date: 2004-09-20 12:42 am (UTC)I did it, but he started roaring and stalking left and right in front of me.
He was an aginging male bengali. Nose-to-tail-tip : I'd say... 12 feet ?
He was pissed off : I was scared.
I once spent an evening in Zimbabwe outside a remote bar (Fort Victoria region) communing (spiritually) with a huge caged male Hyena.
I found him somewhat uncouth and dangerous, but essentially sympathetic.
The tiger was scary. If it wasn't for guns they'd be at the top of the kill-chain.
Hackle-raising stuff.
Re: I was at Chester Zoo in the 70s...
Date: 2004-09-20 03:52 am (UTC)